I Was Holding My Heart

I was holding my heart waiting for the right day

I was holding my heart searching for the words to say

I was holding my heart hoping to delay the unspoken shame though the scene changed the circumstances remained the same. Oh wretched soul of mine set me free from the pain that haunts me. Instead, I bleed and bleed on that which did not harm me and cling to that which binds me like my Jesus nailed to the tree. He didn’t come down no; it was just for me. But yet I still hold my heart

I was holding my heart but my heart was holding me. A bleak existence was all that I could see and though night came I could not sleep. As I lay, listening to the rhythmic beat a yielded woman provoked to weep and weep. Slowly, in the silence the deep calleth to the deep.

Beloved! Declare your acquittal and sing unto me; the shame you claim will no longer remain. The fear you share I won’t let you bare. Come unto me oh damsel of mine; your season has just met set time!

Now I shall trust in the Redeemer’s love that pursues me gently with eyes of a dove. My claim to fame is that He knows my name. No longer to cleave to what I use to believe. In prayer, I shall birth and surely conceive a “surrendered heart” to lie at His feet. I release.

Encountering the Throne Room

(Isa. 6:1-13). This is the year and season to let somethings die and to let others burst forth, flourishing, maturing, in the newness and freshness of new growth and productive eternal fruit.

King Uzziah was among Judah's best Kings. He led the kingdom of God unto a flourishing prosperity era. But at the height of his power, he acted foolishly and was struck with leprosy. Success can bring danger when we stray away from God. This reminds me that forgiveness does not necessarily do away with the consequences of sin. Everyone is without excuses if they refuse to give glory to God. ( Rom: 1:20-23). Isaiah had the same truth proclaimed in God’s throne room, that the earth is full of God's glory. When we have a vision of heaven's room, the experience and encounter prompts us to do what God wants. These dramatic encounters with God causes us to make major changes and choices in our life. We will cry out as Isaiah did, “Woe is me, for I am undone”. Because I am a man of unclean lips. And dwell in the midst of a people of unclean lips. He has called each one of us to respond to Him as Isaiah did, for my eyes have seen the King- The Lord of Host. God reveals Himself through what He has made. Creation shows not only that He exists but that He is just, righteous and holy beyond our comprehension. God initiates each and every encounter and meeting that leads to a specific assignment, calling purpose and changes in our lives. This is the divine exception rather than the rule. We must apply biblical principles to making choices about how to use our God given gifts, skills, talents and abilities, in whatever opportunities the Lord leads us to and whatever doors He opens. We must seek Him and find divine directions as we look for our next steps to take ( Pro. 3:1-6). Our earth is calling, waiting, groaning and depending on us to be faithful in the task and our responsibilities that God has currently predestined , chosen, given, equipped, and commanded us to do in our family, at work, our communities, schools and church. This is God's assignment for us right now and the future. SheSpeaks, Inc. Is the platform for Women to Connect, Educate, and Be Empowered to Build Trusting Relationships, Sharing Their Identity, Developing, Their Purpose to Bloom and Be Great in all the earth. Sharing the big picture with other Queens. The Son has shined on the seeds and they are germinating, sprouting, growing in good soil, the ground is cracking and the stem is bursting through the soil. The trees and flowers are budding! Everything is Blooming! We must continue to be on the lookout for soil that is in need of turning, tilling and fertilizing so that it too will yield productive everlasting good eternal fruit. SheSpeaks is in Bloom and God is Great in her! 🌸🍃🎋🌷🌲🌳🌴🍀☘️🌿🌱🌷🌸🌼🌻🌺🌸🍃🎋🌷🌲🌳🌴🍀☘️🌿

Bloom

As the spring season approaches, my mind drifts to think of what's to come: brighter days with sprouts the will soon be in full bloom, rain and rainbows with new sounds and aromas circulating in the air. I'm excited to see nature and witness God's marvelous works. This will happen because of what has been sown. We will see growth of seeds planted in good soil, un-scorched by the summer sun. Spring will be the manifestation of seeds sown that have withstood the darker days of fall and the chill of a cold winter.

1 Corinthians 3:6 NLT states, "(Paul) planted the seed in your hearts, and Apollos watered it, but it was God who made it grow," Paul's task had been to plant a spiritual seed. Apollos' job was to water the seed. God gave growth. God provides increase.

As I anticipate growth in the natural, it is my desire that my loved ones will grow spiritually. As they develop in their relationship with God, I pray they understand His love, power, authority, and their identity in Him. Scripture reveals that my own efforts will only plant the seed or water it. It is God who makes it grow. God provides increase. I am to be content that I have planted in and watered good ground.

You have the Word, God's promise, concerning loved ones and those connected to us. Have faith in God's promises. In His timing the seeds you planted will grow. Continue planting good seeds and watering your family and those connected to you. They are good ground. God will make them grow.

The concept of sowing and reaping is manifested in both natural and spiritual principles. I ask you, who have you been tasked with in whom to sow good seed and water?

2 Corinthians 9:6 NLT ...the one who plants generously will get a generous crop. Make the choice to sow consistently into others generously of your time, skills, talents and resources. Water them with love, joy, patience, kindness, and gentleness. Sow into others by speaking words that are wise and giving instructions with kindness. Sow wherever you are into whomever you meet. Water by continuously declaring and affirming with the word.

2 Corinthians 9:7 NLT states..."For God loves a person who gives cheerfully." As you enter into this new season sow and water cheerfully. Your relationship with others will blossom, your relationship with God will bloom too. Ecstatically anticipate the season to Bloom & Be Great!